Catyler Jayd

If I'm bein honest, I struggle with how much I care about the selfish things in life. I do care when I get the most or least amount of “likes” I've ever gotten. I do care when the people in my life show more love to their other friends than to me. I do care when somehow everybody else has enough money in the bank to buy the nicest palettes and the brand name contour brushes. I do care when my skin isn't as tan as it could be because I'm working everyday during the “tanning hours.” I do care when people believe things about me that they shouldn't. It’s all so completely mundane and pointless that even writing it out makes me cringe...and care about why I would care about that stuff...  And while I wish I didn't care about those things and I may even try to convince others and myself that I don't, it seems that at this moment, I do. All that being said though, I'm realizing more and more that I don't have to be ashamed for caring. Caring about some...

So I had the opportunity to model for my up and coming photographer friend, Steven Michael George. Go check out his photography seriously he's insane good. Thought that I would post a few pics on here as well in case you wanted to see a few more. And because it was actually so fun!! Definitely will be doing that again. So this is less of a blog and more of a photo log... Or as this photographer calls it - a phlog.

Transitions // It's been a weird couple of weeks to say the least. It has been really difficult getting back into a schedule while seeing old friends again and also trying to get back into a couple of jobs. All a bit hectic. But I think that the most reassuring thing for myself is that I have been able to carve out some time for Jesus and there really isn't anything else I need. (Apologies if I haven't been in touch yet with you, hope to see all of my loved ones before I leave again!) So that brings me back into my next step... Montana. The Big MT // I have been getting a LOT of questions about what I'm going to do next, how that came about, and all the deets of that. Well, first of all, that is the most dreaded and awful question for anyone ages 18-25. I am a culprit as well and ask that question to my own friends... but then cringe at the "What about you?" part of it. I mean, I get it! We are all a bit curious about what is going on in each other...